What Do You Really Want?

I had a very interesting experience several years ago that I’d like to share with you.

I was working as a telemarketing manager at Tyndale House Publishers in Carol Stream, IL. One day I was feeling anxious, actually it had been for several days. I was just anxious. I wasn’t sure what I was anxious about but I was short with people and just generally not happy.

I remember walking into my office and sitting in my chair when I sensed the Lord asking me a question. “What do you want?” Well I didn’t quite know how to respond but I sensed He wanted an answer. He was going after my heart and the source of my anxiety.

He asked again, “What do you want?” I said, “I don’t know, Lord.” He said, “Do you want a raise?” “No.” (Sure I’d love a raise but that wasn’t going to meet the need I was feeling in my heart.) “Do you want a promotion?” “No, that’s not it.” “Do you want a new car?” Again his voice sounded as if he was really pressing me for an answer. “No.” “Do you want a new house?” “NO! That’s not it!” Then He said, “Well what do you want?”

I remember sinking back in my chair saying, “Lord, I guess all I really want is You.”

When I said that, I felt all the anxiety lift off of me. I felt so satisfied. I felt pure. I felt unencumbered. What a relief.

You know the most amazing thing about this is that over the next year and a half after this little visit from the Lord He gave me everything He asked me about. He gave me a raise, a promotion, a new car and a new house. God is good. He really does want to be #1 in our lives.
Make Him #1 not for the raise but just because He’s God.

See ya